I realized I've been back in the US longer than the length of time I spent in India. I was in India for 6 1/2 months and I've been back for 7+. It's weird thing to think about. My time there was so disconnected from "western" life that it seems like I was there for much longer. It's amazing how quickly the time has passed since arriving back on 3/31.
Before I left India I decided to really make an effort to stay open minded about the whole transition. I didn't want to criticize the US for being the way it is, nor seem obsessed with India after my time there. I don't know if I've actually accomplished that. I think I talk about it more than I'd like, but that's just the way it is. I fell in love there and I carry it with me.
My life here in the Bay area is continually expanding. I've finally had to start saying no to people because I'm just too busy. When I first got here I wanted to do everything and meet everyone (& I still do), but I don't want to spread myself thin, nor dig shallow holes. I want my effort to be worthwhile- wherever it is directed.
I am still in awe of this beautiful land and have so much left to explore. I went sailing on the Bay yesterday- it was so amazing.
Downtown SF
Marin County
I get in these moods where I can't decide if I'm happy or not and then I just laugh. It's so ridiculous that I would even consider that. Of course, happiness is a choice and inherent to everyone, but sometimes seems out of reach for no reason at all. Like, a whole array of diamonds could be spread before you and you would see them as normal rocks...It's time to wake up already.
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